request for advise

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LeShana Tovah everyone.  I've been wrestling with a spiritual/psychological
problem for a while, and I wonder if anyone out there has experience with
it.  As an aspiring lay cantor, I know that the role of the shliach tsibur
is about humility, serving G-d and the congregation.  But I find that
singing breeds narcissism.  Does the worry about how you are "performing"
go away with experience?  Emily