[HANASHIR:6185] RE: Refreshed and ready

[Emily Blank <eblank...>]

Hi Folks,

I have to say that the effect HN has on me is slightly different from that 
on others.  Yes, I experienced the spiritual highs that were so intense 
they resembled a sexual release.  (After all, Laura Nyro, ztl, said that 
sexuality, and spirituality and work are not separate).  And, as a second 
timer, I actually BONDED with one or two people.

On the other hand, I also experience lows when I go to HN.  Being around 
all those people can be terribly lonely (if one is not socially adept) when 
the singing and dancing stop, and the noise in the dining room can be 
physically painful.  I know from talking to others that I am not the only 
one who felt that way.

It's still worth it, and you can bet I'll be back, if not the next year, 
then the year after that, as long as HN exists, but I was glad to get back. 
 (After all, you wouldn't want to spend your entire life having sex would 
you?)  G-d may even be relieved to get a rest from all that intense 
praying.

Emily

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Sent:   Tuesday, June 06, 2000 8:17 PM
To:     'hanashir (at) shamash(dot)org'
Subject:        [HANASHIR:6179] Refreshed and ready

Hello to all!

Once again I'm stunned by the impact this weekend has had on me!  I had
thought my second HN couldn't possibly affect me the way the first did,
and, well, any of you who saw me Saturday know better!  It was incredible.
 You know, I'm used to having the music play in my head.  It was mentioned
by more than one that it's something that makes us unique as a group.  But
come on........now it's been transfered to my feet, too.  And that can be
embarassing (and is) in grocery stores, restaurants and on my front lawn.
 The music is so inside me now I sing and move at all sorts of odd moments! 
 Oh well, I guess I'll have to learn to live with that now, too.

And Judah, Judah, Judah (said with a bit of Cary Grant) what wonderful CDs. 
 Any concern you had about them should be gone, I hope.  They are truely
wonderful.  Thanks so much to you for your part in putting them together,
and to whom ever else played a part.

I must say, I'm glad to be home.  Not because I wanted to leave the
creative, caring, spiritual, family atmosphere of HN, but because I feel
the need to share and give now.  Whenever I share my music, you're all
there with me.  Thanks to each of you for filling my spirit so I can return 
renewed and refreshed.

Return to who you are
Return to what you are
Return to where you are born and reborn and ...

Love to all,
Kristin


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